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~ Tales of a vagrant ant ~
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7.17.2004
flying blind
Well, it's been a while, hasn't it? My mind has been just a mush of work, scuba diving, and missing katie... Work always goes on until late evening (around 7-9pm), and by that time it's like 10-midnight over in north carolina, and katie is most probably fast asleep, preparing for her crazy aquarium education programs. I don't really mind working all that much, but it's just getting to a point of ridiculousness, when I can't even talk to the one person that I am in love with and have missed so much all day long. And beyond that, I've barely seen any of my friends here, or done anything social, for that matter... it's just so damn late by the time i finish work... well just late to the point where it's silly to plan any activities, especially after dinner. Hence two weeks have just flown by, and I've been barely able to stray from a daily routine of waking up, going to work, eating dinner, and just go on the computer for a few hours until bed. Sure money is nice, but it isn't memories, nor is it friendship. I am extremely priveleged and grateful to say that at this point in my life, money isn't a crucial factor in my life right now as I'm still not self-supporting, but really, the money i'm making right now at my minimum wage job isn't going to make me rich... maybe enough to pay for what.. a month of rent and a grocery trip? I just feel like things in my life are coming at me quickly, so many things I keep saying I will do, and i'm blinded by work, and I just need to stop fucking around after I get off work, and before I go to work, and get things done... Like even at work, everyone else seems to be having a life... going out, camping, vacationing, and all kinds of stuff. But outside of work, i'm either studying for scuba or anthropology, going to dive lessons, or being at home... Okay, seeing as this is my third post bitching about my lacking life, you would think I would have smartened up by now, huh? Guess I still haven't quite figured it out yet, huh? :/ It'll come someday, I guess. | feeling: fed up | Today's Fotolog: farewell shoe
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