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~ Tales of a vagrant ant ~
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4.21.2004
Stillness
Today, stillness has entered my life again. Even though I was running around packing and moving most of the day, in my mind, I was frozen in the moment when I woke up with her by my side, an amazing warmth that filled me with love. I know I'll be treasuring and reliving it in the next few months to come. In a way, I feel like my life might hit a stillness when I get back to Vancouver, but I will be doing my very best to NOT let life push me around like that. Throughout today, I just wanted to just hold Katie close and never let her go, because I know that there was only so much time before she was to get into her car and take my heart away with her for the summer. I really do feel like I'm missing half of myself, and there's this silence in the void that was filled by Katie. Even though I'll seem fine, I won't be the same as when I'm with Katie. There is just something different when I am with her. I feel utterly at ease with her, that I can entirely trust and not need to worry about her. Relationships are so fucked up these days... To me, it just seems like a lot of people are having issues with relationships, whether it's having one, not having one, having fucky ones, and I am sooo incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful person to have in my life to share the joyful times as well as the rougher ones. So thank you. I'll be thinking of you... I go to school, I write exams, if I pass, if I fail, if I drop out, does anyone give a damn? And if they do, they'll soon forget 'cause it won't take much for me to show my life ain't over yet. I wake up scared, I wake up strange. I wake up wondering if anything in my life is ever going to change. I wake up scared, I wake up strange and everything around me stays the same. ~Barenaked Ladies | feeling: empty | | listening: Barenaked ladies- What a Good boy |
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