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11.08.2003
focus
think. breathe. do. forget. be distracted. rinse and repeat. That sounds like roughly the story of my life right now. I'm too easily distracted. I don't feel like I have the ability of focus on one thing and develop it into something... of worth, well at least to me. Like the last post I made at my blog. It was jumping randomly all over the place. From going to toronto, to cousins, the future, to saving the world. WTF?? Maybe it's the lack of sleep talking. I have enough sleep debt for many a small nation, (Luxembourg), and maybe even for a decent size one(France). Where was I again? Point proven. Anyways (point proven again), I'm sort of feeling a change. I can sort of feel it stirring itself inside me. It's a bit of a restless feeling. I need something. I'm not quite sure what, but I think it's generally a sense of feeling more alive. It's fucking hard in school and all, with assignments swarming like locusts right now, but I feel like I'm not appreciating each new day that comes my way. I'm trying to wean myself off my computer. (yes, I said wean) It seems like I spend so many of my waking hours in front of it, like I'm feeding an addiction, by basking in its radiation in all its glory. I want to simplify my life, and do the things that really matter to me, not the things that are much easier that I don't mind doing. and to stop doing useless things like it's not a useless thing... like collecting bookmarks like it's digital gold. Part of it is that I want to live life in all its complexity, nuances, and grandeur. There's simply too much though, and even if I try to bookmark everything in the hopes that one day I'll get around to doing all the things I want to, there'll never be enough time. So I need to stop wanting to do stuff that I know I'll never get around to, and really figure out what I want so that I can just do it. Vive vie! Carpe Diem! Carpe Noctem. Have a nice day! :)
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